PeNsIvE

For most of our closest families and friends, this news is no longer surprising — most of them have already been shocked, if not twice, as Bobby and I were. I know I haven’t blogged for about over a year now not necessarily for lack of trying but mainly having nothing really interesting to write about.

As most of you know, we’ve been married for a while, going 5 years now and so typical of Filipino families, or maybe families in general, the pressure of "when are you planning to have kids" immediately follows the wedding bells. Which if maybe you were in my shoes your ears would have bled by now.

Here and there, I would hear someone getting pregnant, even younger than me — there wasn’t any pressure until I realized I am already 29 years old and almost a majority of my friends who have been married after I did are already pregnant or have kids already. Yup, the clock is ticking. I’ve always thought I would eventually have kids — I’ve always seen myself eventually becoming a mom, I just never knew when it was gonna happen.

We always tease Kamille that she was ordered from Costco, and that she should help me make my order — coz they always run out of stock. Finally, they got stock!!! Or should we say there were multiple stocks available and we got 2!!! hehe O ayan ha!? I’m being a bit more explicit — most of the folks we told didn’t realize immediately that it is a "double" blessing, most of them were too excited to hear about the pregnancy news alone and didn’t get to read through the rest of our announcement card.

Bobby and I are a little bit worried about finances and about being ready and being able to take care of 2 babies, but I’m sure God will provide and will help us be great parents. Both Bobby and I have lived with limited means our whole lives, not poor but not rich either, but we turned out okay. In fact, I’m more worried about being able to give my kids everything than being able to provide them with less. I want my kids to have the same aspirations and fulfillments as I had — most kids I’ve seen who do not seem to value what they have —even when they already have everything are those who’ve been spoon fed everything. I’d want my kids to know know that getting a Barbie doll, an iPod or an xBox is a huge thing. And I’d like them to know what a great feeling it is to purchase your own car — not because it is a cool make or new model, but because they’ve earned it.

Believe it or not, I’ve always thought everything I got in life was hard earned — nothing was easy — I always had to work for it or wait for a long time. Sometimes the struggle is frustrating, but I always realize in the end that it just makes it sweeter, and the apreciation is much more.

I’ve always been clueless about biology — I still do not know where our hair and finger nails come from, which trully makes this "twin miracle" really astonishing for me. God’s engineering and design is really unbelievable. I know they are developing in my tummy — for at least 32 weeks — the doctor said to prepare for delivery earlier since they’re a twin.

I haven’t had a lot of morning sickness yet, just a couple of times so far. I was thinking it’s more frequent but maybe it’s just too early at this point. Sleeping is the thing I find difficult at this point.  I’m sleepy so early which I love coz I usually stay up late at nights coz I can’t sleep — but then finding a position to sleep in is quite challenging. By the time I find a good position, it’s time to pee. Oh well.

Anyway, hopefully I can continue to blog as my tummy grows to keep you all updated. Please join me and Bobby in waiting for the storks to deliver our little angels and in praying that they have a safe trip.